Just wondering...

We wonder if the measurements we received on our last baby update is accurate or did they weight her with clothes on… (In China young kids are usually dressed in many thick layers during cold weather). I keep buying baby stuff but drive myself crazy wondering if am choosing the right size. Yeah, I know so silly thinking and worrying about such trivial things.

I guess it's because everything related to our adoption is so out of our control and everything feels so impersonal.  It doesn't feel as if we are expecting and preparing for our child, with all the paperwork craziness it feels more like we are buying a house and are applying for a mortgage...so sad :o(

Buying clothes and things for our baby girl makes this process more exciting, Yes, finally preparing for our baby girl!

 Sometimes I feel sad wondering which clothes we may be giving away because our baby girl will be too big for those clothes by the time we finally meet her… it reminds me of how much we have missed from our baby's life. I understand that adoption is a process and every step is important to make sure everything is done correctly and legally to protect the children as well as the families but sheesh, it takes forever! I have to keep reminding myself that yes, we started our adoption journey three years ago but the actual China process has been going for only 4 months and we have made so much progress in such short period of time... I just want to hold my baby girl! The wait was easier before we received our referral...looking at her pictures and not being able to hold her is sometimes very- very difficult.

I don't know how so many families have waited for their kiddos 5+ years! If anyone out there is reading and have tips on how to deal with the wait without going crazy please share because we still have lots of waiting to do.

 I just received the organic baby outfits from Under the Nile, so cute and soft :0)I ordered them size 24 months... they look so big!)