As I sat here trying to form
words that make sense, all I can do is just look at our baby girl’s picture and
thank God for our blessings. I find myself crying a lot but my tears are of
happiness! We have come such a long way!
Just a few days before we
switch to China program we had a very intense conversation about our hopes,
dreams and frustrations about our Russian adoption process -We were so tired of
being disappointed- nothing about our adoption ever seemed to work,(it
seemed all wrong.) The more we pushed the more disappointed and
frustrated we became. It was as if we were trying to swim against the
current. We were crushed. Passing each day by the girly room we had prepared
with so much love and seeing it empty was just too much for us to handle. It
was so painful that we decided to put the whole thing behind us and focus on
our relationship and our life.
Just like that we decided
to give up! No more talking about babies, dolls, tea parties or hair bows…no
more :0(
The grieving did not last long
because God had a little surprise in store for us- Less than a week later
we received the referral of our little girl!
Here we are nine months later
just counting the days to travel to China to meet our daughter!
God works in mysterious ways and
who are we to question him right?
We just have trust in him and
lean not in our own understanding.
God closed one door but open
another one for us...We are so blessed!
Picture
of the sad girly room before we turned it into an office :0(
Can't wait to make it look girly
again! Of course I have to go shopping for the makeover but waiting
for our girl to come home(so I can have a better sense of her personality ;O)
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